Today is the 26th November 2007 . Guess what . I finally found time for my own things . Though i have presentation tomorrow, but whatever, i just feel like blogging . . .





Knew i haven't been posting for quite some time . So many things happen . NEGATIVE !





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I don't know what to say . I got a email notification on gems that i have an attendance of below 85% . Okay, i got it, i will attend it . Happy ?





You know, one thing good about having cliques is that you belong to somewhere, you know you're not alone, you got very close and good friends who give you memories you will never wanna forget nor live past them, you would wish for time to stop when you're having a good time with them . Know the meaning of clique ? A small group of people who spend their time together and do not welcome other people into that group . I hope that's the case always . And i do hope we stay together, minimal quarrels .





I'm not being emotional, i'm just not in the mood for happy things . Almost everything is in a mess .





MST . . I stayed up the entire night revising and in the end i did not even pass, not for one night, it's two coming to three nights wasted just like that .





I feel totally stupid . I am a freak . I am a slut . I am a dumb ass . I am a bustard . I am a whore . I am a pain in the ass . I am a trouble maker . I am nothing but someone who makes people hate . I am just so retarded .





Whatever .





I think god is playing on me to not get good grades and see people get good grades .





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It totally ticks me off . And my school interest level drops from 70% to 30% now . Whatever . . i mean . . no point having so much interest and end up failing all . It just waste my time, my youth and my life .





I'm going to Finland next May, yet to confirm, if any clique member is willing to go, i will go for sure . All i need is someone to accompany me, hopefully Nathan is able to, coz he wants to go too . As for Perth, sorry, my current financial status is just not good enough for me to go both, i go for the one which benefits me more - Finland .



I am now working more than usual for save money for Finland . And if i don't get to go, i don't care what happens, if i don't go, i will spend all my save money intended for Finland in one day on useless stuffs . I don't even mind burning it . Coz then, all my efforts will go to waste, if my efforts go to waste, my money shall go to waste too . And i will not donate or give anyone . Maybe i'll give dogs . =) . Bark like a dog on my foot and follow me to the public and i'll give you the money .



Beginning to hate school, not school mates, but the school system and what they do . It sucks .



Speaking of work . Haha . I can't believe this is happening to me . Yesterday was Sunday and i was working split shift - 10am to 4pm, 6pm to 11pm . A scottish actually asked for my cellphone number . Haha . I was like . . . are you sure of what you are doing or have you got drunk by the red wine ( he ordered a bottle of Wolf Blass Shiraz with his two friends ) ? Whatever the case is, i gave him, i didn't think that much, i should have miss one number and let him call to another phone, but i was busy, so my reaction was like : ' oh ok, take it and leave me alone, i'm busy now' . Haha . But he didn't call, so thank god . =) .

What i'm feeling right now is that, i am really tired and i really wanna turn in, but i can't yet . For the entire day, i only had two slices of toasted bread for breakfast and two small packet of chips ( french fries ) . No dinner . And Mom is on her way home with my dinner - burgers . CRS presentation tomorrow . . . gonna be interesting with debates sort of thing but i think i wouldn't be so intense . =/ .

Wednesday going to catch the movie 'Enchanted' with the cliques, it would be a nice day . =) . And i'm gonna get my ADIDAS sweater if it's within my budget . Have been aiming for it for months ! Each and everytime i go to work i would bypass it and look at it without fail . Love it and it's design . =)) .

Should i get myself a PSP ? It's so tempting, Peter and En already got one each and Er Jie's getting JunJun one too . Hmmm . . . if i earn more than 600 bucks this month, i'll get it . Just wait . Haha .

And i think i would need new clothes ! ! Everyday after school i went pass ALANO and THIS FASHION, there are for sure one or two clothes standing out . So far, i've aiming for a vest, a cardigan and a full body outfit . I wanna be a fashionista ! Hip phunk stylish and ooh la la kinda thing . Haha .

Had add on some things on the left panel . Suddenly have this urge to write it down and never to forget . Naive ? Maybe . But i would really wantit to happen . All my dreams, wannabe and wishes . Sigh . If only i could have it, i would be the one of the happiest person on Earth . Haha .

Whatever the case is, i only ask for everything to be smooth going, coz nothing gets better without it .

Will blog again soon with photos, i took lotsa photos, can't wait to show it . Next time . Ciao ~